january 2023

the sea
windows as framing devices
radio waves <3
amateur bookbinding
the banshees of inisherin (2022)
not an exaggeration at all to say that i was sobbing and shaking through the last half of this movie, it absolutely wrung me out (in both a good and a bad way- affective media!) it’s always difficult to watch things that are about loneliness and connection and resignation of the way your life is and will always be, and this hammered that home in a very human and tragic way.

m3gan (2022)

we're all going to the world's fair (2021)
slow, beautiful soundtrack, melancholy, very uneasy.

revolutionary girl utena
LUSH TEXT that had me frantically taking notes on rose gardens and temporality.

okay! conflicted about this one bc i love LOOPS and CYCLES and MEMORY and MEMORY ERASURE NARRATIVES but hate [REDACTED FOR SPOILERS AND FOR INTENTIONAL DISRESPECT OF THE CONCEPT]. i rly rly enjoyed watching this & getting to dissect & theorise after each episode with my brother and spend a few days between episodes turning it over in my mind and making little media connections. it lost me a little in the last few episodes where it got a bit messy and i could kind of see that the direction of the show was not really where i wanted it to go. but there was a lot i loved about it, particularly: the inescapable environment of the ship, the ‘how can a landscape be on a ship’ memory windows (VERY obsessed), the way the memories would run through like a play, the way each character is revealed to have different variations on the same backstory, the idea of hiding someone in your memory (very eternal sunshine), the idea of someone being safe OR unsafe in your memory (also very eternal sunshine), ship as maze, ship as puzzle box, ship as social experiment, the brief moment where i became very excited about the concept of ship haunted by the characters who had just died, the technological grotesque of the wire tunnels running through the ship, the questions of unreliable or fabricated memory, and the shipwreck graveyard archive. i Will keep thinking about it.

devil house, john darniella
love a story that is about the telling of the story more than the story itself. a 'true’ crime narrative that is instead more about how true crime narratives are created/evolve/to what purpose they serve. plays around with narration/pov and explores how memory/history/fantasy intertwine in true crime narratives to create something that will always be partially fictional- and how that imagined reality can be a way of sensationalising and cheapening something terrible, or a way of providing dignity and closure through storytelling.

the stepford wives, ira levin
still so chilling and effective 50 years later. knowing how it will end and reading just feeling full of sad dread for what’s going to happen.

dracula (via the dracula daily substack)
realised upon starting dracula that i actually did not know the story at all or have any idea how it would end, or even if it was a tragedy- which made it genuinely, surprisingly suspenseful. found it very touching to read about a bunch of people who just really love and care about each other so, so much. was also surprised at how little it followed a conventional horror formula, which I guess makes sense but that was also kind of refreshing. reading it piece by piece via email was such an interesting way to experience it, especially for the first time, & i'm very curious to eventually read it the right way and see how that changes things.

ID: a comic of the month's activties
  • hell in japanese art, in the art gallery library
  • olive oil bundt cake
  • the first ripe tomatoes (from the seeds i planted a few months ago) + the st andrews cross spider who has set up home across the plants
  • do ho suh exhibition
  • pastry crab for the top of arkady's king's cake
  • listening to the hottest 100, travelling up the coast
  • nosferatu, broody.